Chapter 22 Sơn glanced toward the corner of the room. He had just spotted Uyên and her husband. Nearby stood Triệu Tôn and a woman wearing a *sườn xám*—a traditional high-slit dress. As was his habit whenever he encountered Uyên, the Triệu Tôn stared at her with a ravenous gaze, oblivious to everyone around them. Sơn smiled. His friend’s partnership was built upon the sexual currency of a single woman, and he couldn't fathom how long it could possibly last.
All he knew was that, for the moment, everyone seemed content—especially given the extraordinary success of their investment venture. Yet Uyên was a ticking time bomb, liable to explode at any moment; Sơn had little faith in the stability of a business enterprise fraught with such intense sexual tension. Although Lữ hadn't confided in him directly, Sơn was astute enough to realize that the connection between Lữ and Uyên ran far deeper than mere business investments. Sơn mused to himself that he ought to advise Lữ to sell off this Bolsa commercial complex sooner rather than later—before something disastrous occurred.
A soft voice drifted into his ear:
"She’s quite beautiful, isn't she? Don't you think so, Sơn?" Sơn turned around; Miriam was standing right behind him. He smiled:
"She’s alright. But she’s not really my type." "I always assumed that you men—all of you—were drawn to that particular type of woman." There was a subtle, unusual note in Miriam’s voice. Sơn studied her intently. Had Miriam grown suspicious about the nature of Lữ and Uyên’s relationship? Sơn deftly steered the conversation in a different direction:
"This party is quite lively, isn't it? Have you ever attended a gathering with this many Vietnamese people before, Miriam?" "No, never! This is actually my first time. Lữ insisted I attend so I could meet some new people. But I feel a bit out of place. Thank goodness you’re here to talk to." Sơn asked, sounding slightly surprised:
"Where is Lữ, anyway? I’ve only caught a fleeting glimpse of him once since I got here. Where did he go?" "He’s inside, discussing some business deal with a few other people. I got bored, so I came out here. Why does it always have to be about chasing after money like that?" Miriam frowned, a flicker of anger beginning to rise within her. Son felt a pang of awkwardness:
"Why don't you just tell Lữ exactly how you feel?" "I have! But Lữ is completely obsessed with making money now! No matter what I say, it’s useless! He doesn't care about anything else anymore—nothing but business. It’s *always* just business!" Son tried to defend his friend:
"Maybe it’s just a phase! I don't think he’s *that* consumed by it." Miriam shook her head and remained silent. Son steered the conversation in a different direction:
"Are you still studying Psychology at UCLA?" "No! I dropped it. Now I’m studying the Arts—painting and sculpture." Sơn was delighted. He shifted the topic of conversation to help Miriam forget her frustration with Lữ. Sơn, too, had a passion for drawing and painting; back when he was studying in Toronto, he had even enrolled in painting classes himself.
He chatted with Miriam about famous paintings, various art schools, and modern artists. He was pleased to discover just how many things they had in common. But more importantly, Miriam had begun to cheer up; she was no longer preoccupied with the fact that Lữ had left her alone at the party to attend to business matters. Nor did she pay any further attention to Uyên or the men standing around in the corner of the room.
Sơn continued discussing art with Miriam—partly as a way to distract and comfort his friend—yet, at the same time, he began to sense a vague feeling of unease. Was there something amiss in the way he was speaking so enthusiastically about painting and art with his friend’s wife? Was the sheer pleasure of discussing a favorite subject with a beautiful, captivating, and kindred spirit a completely normal, natural occurrence—or was there something else at play?
Sơn shook his head, feeling sheepish. Perhaps he was worrying too much about the future, and his moral and social reflexes were a bit excessive. Likewise, his instinct to protect his friendship was perhaps overly intense. What, after all, was wrong with engaging in a mutually enriching conversation about painting with Miriam—an American woman—and feeling drawn to her, captivated by her charm? Why did he have to question himself and blow the matter out of proportion like this?
Yet, Sơn still felt uneasy. Miriam, meanwhile, seemed to become even more immersed in their conversation. She began to transform. The scowling, irritable demeanor she had displayed earlier vanished completely. Her eyes sparkled, as if she were someone who had just rediscovered her true self. And Sơn began to feel a genuine sense of apprehension.
Sơn had never been in love before. He had never felt his heart flutter at the sight of a particular figure, a specific glance, or a smile. Although he held an absolute conviction that true love existed—that it resided somewhere out there, in a place he had yet to discover—he simply believed that, one day, he would find that love for himself.
Sơn used to have frequent debates with Lữ back in the days when they still lived in Vietnam. Lữ—driven by a powerful sexual instinct—never believed that anything could exist between a man and a woman other than mere physical attraction. Sơn—with his inherent romantic nature—was forever seeking the sublime beauty of emotional resonance with a member of the opposite sex—a connection he had never actually managed to achieve.
The two men were like polar opposites; yet, perhaps that very contrast was precisely why they were able to be such close friends. There was never any rivalry between Sơn and Lữ when it came to women, for the objects of their desires were entirely different.
Sơn vaguely sensed that something extraordinary was happening within him as he stood there at the party, discussing art with Miriam. He struggled to resist the powerful emotion slowly rising within him—a sensation he had never known before—welling up, intoxicating him, and utterly consuming his soul. Could it be? Could this truly be it? Sơn’s rational mind began to race...