Daniel Deronda -by George Eliot
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DANIEL DERONDA
By George Eliot
 
Let thy chief terror be of thine own soul:
There, 'mid the throng of hurrying desires
That trample on the dead to seize their spoil,
Lurks vengeance, footless, irresistible
As exhalations laden with slow death,
And o'er the fairest troop of captured joys
Breathes pallid pestilence.
 

CONTENTS.

BOOK I. THE SPOILED CHILD
"   II. MEETING STREAMS
"  III. MAIDENS CHOOSING
"   IV. GWENDOLEN GETS HER CHOICE
"    V. MORDECAI
"   VI. REVELATIONS
"  VII. THE MOTHER AND THE SON
" VIII. FRUIT AND SEED
 

DANIEL DERONDA.
 

BOOK I.--THE SPOILED CHILD.

CHAPTER I.
    Men can do nothing without the make-believe of a beginning. Even
    science, the strict measurer, is obliged to start with a make-believe
    unit, and must fix on a point in the stars' unceasing journey when his
    sidereal clock shall pretend that time is at Nought. His less accurate
    grandmother Poetry has always been understood to start in the middle;
    but on reflection it appears that her proceeding is not very different
    from his; since Science, too, reckons backward as well as forward,
    divides his unit into billions, and with his clock-finger at Nought
    really sets off _in medias res_. No retrospect will take us to
    the true beginning; and whether our prologue be in heaven or on earth,
    it is but a fraction of that all-presupposing fact with which our
    story sets out.

Was she beautiful or not beautiful? and what was the secret of form or
expression which gave the dynamic quality to her glance? Was the good or
the evil genius dominant in those beams? Probably the evil; else why was
the effect that of unrest rather than of undisturbed charm? Why was the
wish to look again felt as coercion and not as a longing in which the
whole being consents?
She who raised these questions in Daniel Deronda's mind was occupied in
gambling: not in the open air under a southern sky, tossing coppers on a
ruined wall, with rags about her limbs; but in one of those splendid
resorts which the enlightenment of ages has prepared for the same species
of pleasure at a heavy cost of guilt mouldings, dark-toned color and
chubby nudities, all correspondingly heavy--forming a suitable condenser
for human breath belonging, in great part, to the highest fashion, and not
easily procurable to be breathed in elsewhere in the like proportion, at
least by persons of little fashion.
It was near four o'clock on a September day, so that the atmosphere was
well-brewed to a visible haze. There was deep stillness, broken only by a
light rattle, a light chink, a small sweeping sound, and an occasional
monotone in French, such as might be expected to issue from an ingeniously
constructed automaton. Round two long tables were gathered two serried
crowds of human beings, all save one having their faces and attention bent
on the tables. The one exception was a melancholy little boy, with his
knees and calves simply in their natural clothing of epidermis, but for
the rest of his person in a fancy dress. He alone had his face turned
toward the doorway, and fixing on it the blank gaze of a bedizened child
stationed as a masquerading advertisement on the platform of an itinerant
show, stood close behind a lady deeply engaged at the roulette-table.
About this table fifty or sixty persons were assembled, many in the outer
rows, where there was occasionally a deposit of new-comers, being mere
spectators, only that one of them, usually a woman, might now and then be
observed putting down a five-franc with a simpering air, just to see what
the passion of gambling really was. Those who were taking their pleasure
at a higher strength, and were absorbed in play, showed very distant
varieties of European type: Livonian and Spanish, Graeco-Italian and
miscellaneous German, English aristocratic and English plebeian. Here
certainly was a striking admission of human equality. The white bejewelled
fingers of an English countess were very near touching a bony, yellow,
crab-like hand stretching a bared wrist to clutch a heap of coin--a hand
easy to sort with the square, gaunt face, deep-set eyes, grizzled
eyebrows, and ill-combed scanty hair which seemed a slight metamorphosis
of the vulture. And where else would her ladyship have graciously
consented to sit by that dry-lipped feminine figure prematurely old,
withered after short bloom like her artificial flowers, holding a shabby
velvet reticule before her, and occasionally putting in her mouth the
point with which she pricked her card? There too, very near the fair
countess, was a respectable London tradesman, blonde and soft-handed, his
sleek hair scrupulously parted behind and before, conscious of circulars
addressed to the nobility and gentry, whose distinguished patronage
enabled him to take his holidays fashionably, and to a certain extent in
their distinguished company. Not his gambler's passion that nullifies
appetite, but a well-fed leisure, which, in the intervals of winning money
in business and spending it showily, sees no better resource than winning
money in play and spending it yet more showily--reflecting always that
Providence had never manifested any disapprobation of his amusement, and
dispassionate enough to leave off if the sweetness of winning much and
seeing others lose had turned to the sourness of losing much and seeing
others win. For the vice of gambling lay in losing money at it. In his
bearing there might be something of the tradesman, but in his pleasures he
was fit to rank with the owners of the oldest titles. Standing close to
his chair was a handsome Italian, calm, statuesque, reaching across him to
place the first pile of napoleons from a new bagful just brought him by an
envoy with a scrolled mustache. The pile was in half a minute pushed over
to an old bewigged woman with eye-glasses pinching her nose. There was a
slight gleam, a faint mumbling smile about the lips of the old woman; but
the statuesque Italian remained impassive, and--probably secure in an
infallible system which placed his foot on the neck of chance--immediately
prepared a new pile. So did a man with the air of an emaciated beau or
worn-out libertine, who looked at life through one eye-glass, and held out
his hand tremulously when he asked for change. It could surely be no
severity of system, but rather some dream of white crows, or the induction
that the eighth of the month was lucky, which inspired the fierce yet
tottering impulsiveness of his play.
But, while every single player differed markedly from every other, there
was a certain uniform negativeness of expression which had the effect of a
mask--as if they had all eaten of some root that for the time compelled
the brains of each to the same narrow monotony of action.
Deronda's first thought when his eyes fell on this scene of dull, gas-
poisoned absorption, was that the gambling of Spanish shepherd-boys had
seemed to him more enviable:--so far Rousseau might be justified in
maintaining that art and science had done a poor service to mankind. But
suddenly he felt the moment become dramatic. His attention was arrested by
a young lady who, standing at an angle not far from him, was the last to
whom his eyes traveled. She was bending and speaking English to a middle-
aged lady seated at play beside her: but the next instant she returned to
her play, and showed the full height of a graceful figure, with a face
which might possibly be looked at without admiration, but could hardly be
passed with indifference.
The inward debate which she raised in Deronda gave to his eyes a growing
expression of scrutiny, tending farther and farther away from the glow of
mingled undefined sensibilities forming admiration. At one moment they
followed the movements of the figure, of the arms and hands, as this
problematic sylph bent forward to deposit her stake with an air of firm
choice; and the next they returned to the face which, at present
unaffected by beholders, was directed steadily toward the game. The sylph
was a winner; and as her taper fingers, delicately gloved in pale-gray,
were adjusting the coins which had been pushed toward her in order to pass
them back again to the winning point, she looked round her with a survey
too markedly cold and neutral not to have in it a little of that nature
which we call art concealing an inward exultation.
But in the course of that survey her eyes met Deronda's, and instead of
averting them as she would have desired to do, she was unpleasantly
conscious that they were arrested--how long? The darting sense that he was
measuring her and looking down on her as an inferior, that he was of
different quality from the human dross around her, that he felt himself in
a region outside and above her, and was examining her as a specimen of a
lower order, roused a tingling resentment which stretched the moment with
conflict. It did not bring the blood to her cheeks, but it sent it away
from her lips. She controlled herself by the help of an inward defiance,
and without other sign of emotion than this lip-paleness turned to her
play. But Deronda's gaze seemed to have acted as an evil eye. Her stake
was gone. No matter; she had been winning ever since she took to roulette
with a few napoleons at command, and had a considerable reserve. She had
begun to believe in her luck, others had begun to believe in it: she had
visions of being followed by a _cortège_ who would worship her as a
goddess of luck and watch her play as a directing augury. Such things had
been known of male gamblers; why should not a woman have a like supremacy?
Her friend and chaperon who had not wished her to play at first was
beginning to approve, only administering the prudent advice to stop at the
right moment and carry money back to England--advice to which Gwendolen
had replied that she cared for the excitement of play, not the winnings.
On that supposition the present moment ought to have made the flood-tide
in her eager experience of gambling. Yet, when her next stake was swept
away, she felt the orbits of her eyes getting hot, and the certainty she
had (without looking) of that man still watching her was something like a
pressure which begins to be torturing. The more reason to her why she
should not flinch, but go on playing as if she were indifferent to loss or
gain. Her friend touched her elbow and proposed that they should quit the
table. For reply Gwendolen put ten louis on the same spot: she was in that
mood of defiance in which the mind loses sight of any end beyond the
satisfaction of enraged resistance; and with the puerile stupidity of a
dominant impulse includes luck among its objects of defiance. Since she
was not winning strikingly, the next best thing was to lose strikingly.
She controlled her muscles, and showed no tremor of mouth or hands. Each
time her stake was swept off she doubled it. Many were now watching her,
but the sole observation she was conscious of was Deronda's, who, though
she never looked toward him, she was sure had not moved away. Such a drama
takes no long while to play out: development and catastrophe can often be
measured by nothing clumsier than the moment-hand. "Faites votre jeu,
mesdames et messieurs," said the automatic voice of destiny from between
the mustache and imperial of the croupier: and Gwendolen's arm was
stretched to deposit her last poor heap of napoleons. "Le jeu ne va plus,"
said destiny. And in five seconds Gwendolen turned from the table, but
turned resolutely with her face toward Deronda and looked at him. There
was a smile of irony in his eyes as their glances met; but it was at least
better that he should have disregarded her as one of an insect swarm who
had no individual physiognomy. Besides, in spite of his superciliousness
and irony, it was difficult to believe that he did not admire her spirit
as well as her person: he was young, handsome, distinguished in
appearance--not one of these ridiculous and dowdy Philistines who thought
it incumbent on them to blight the gaming-table with a sour look of
protest as they passed by it. The general conviction that we are admirable
does not easily give way before a single negative; rather when any of
Vanity's large family, male or female, find their performance received
coldly, they are apt to believe that a little more of it will win over the
unaccountable dissident. In Gwendolen's habits of mind it had been taken
for granted that she knew what was admirable and that she herself was
admired. This basis of her thinking had received a disagreeable
concussion, and reeled a little, but was not easily to be overthrown.
In the evening the same room was more stiflingly heated, was brilliant
with gas and with the costumes of ladies who floated their trains along it
or were seated on the ottomans.
The Nereid in sea-green robes and silver ornaments, with a pale sea-green
feather fastened in silver falling backward over her green hat and light
brown hair, was Gwendolen Harleth. She was under the wing, or rather
soared by the shoulder, of the lady who had sat by her at the roulette-
table; and with them was a gentleman with a white mustache and clipped
hair: solid-browed, stiff and German. They were walking about or standing
to chat with acquaintances, and Gwendolen was much observed by the seated
groups.
"A striking girl--that Miss Harleth--unlike others."
"Yes, she has got herself up as a sort of serpent now--all green and
silver, and winds her neck about a little more than usual."
"Oh, she must always be doing something extraordinary. She is that kind of
girl, I fancy. Do you think her pretty, Mr. Vandernoodt?"
"Very. A man might risk hanging for her--I mean a fool might."
"You like a _nez retroussé_, then, and long narrow eyes?"
"When they go with such an _ensemble_."
"The _ensemble du serpent_?"
"If you will. Woman was tempted by a serpent; why not man?"
"She is certainly very graceful; but she wants a tinge of color in her
cheeks. It is a sort of Lamia beauty she has."
"On the contrary, I think her complexion one of her chief charms. It is a
warm paleness; it looks thoroughly healthy. And that delicate nose with
its gradual little upward curve is distracting. And then her mouth--there
never was a prettier mouth, the lips curled backward so finely, eh,
Mackworth?"
"Think so? I cannot endure that sort of mouth. It looks so self-
complacent, as if it knew its own beauty--the curves are too immovable. I
like a mouth that trembles more."
"For my part, I think her odious," said a dowager. "It is wonderful what
unpleasant girls get into vogue. Who are these Langens? Does anybody know
them?"
"They are quite _comme il faut_. I have dined with them several times at
the _Russie_. The baroness is English. Miss Harleth calls her cousin. The
girl herself is thoroughly well-bred, and as clever as possible."
"Dear me! and the baron?".
"A very good furniture picture."
"Your baroness is always at the roulette-table," said Mackworth. "I fancy
she has taught the girl to gamble."
"Oh, the old woman plays a very sober game; drops a ten-franc piece here
and there. The girl is more headlong. But it is only a freak."
"I hear she has lost all her winnings to-day. Are they rich? Who knows?"
"Ah, who knows? Who knows that about anybody?" said Mr. Vandernoodt,
moving off to join the Langens.
The remark that Gwendolen wound her neck about more than usual this
evening was true. But it was not that she might carry out the serpent idea
more completely: it was that she watched for any chance of seeing Deronda,
so that she might inquire about this stranger, under whose measuring gaze
she was still wincing. At last her opportunity came.
"Mr. Vandernoodt, you know everybody," said Gwendolen, not too eagerly,
rather with a certain languor of utterance which she sometimes gave to her
clear soprano. "Who is that near the door?"
"There are half a dozen near the door. Do you mean that old Adonis in the
George the Fourth wig?"
"No, no; the dark-haired young man on the right with the dreadful
expression."
"Dreadful, do you call it? I think he is an uncommonly fine fellow."
"But who is he?"
"He is lately come to our hotel with Sir Hugo Mallinger."
"Sir Hugo Mallinger?"
"Yes. Do you know him?"
"No." (Gwendolen colored slightly.) "He has a place near us, but he never
comes to it. What did you say was the name of that gentleman near the
door?"
"Deronda--Mr. Deronda."
"What a delightful name! Is he an Englishman?"
"Yes. He is reported to be rather closely related to the baronet. You are
interested in him?"
"Yes. I think he is not like young men in general."
"And you don't admire young men in general?"
"Not in the least. I always know what they will say. I can't at all guess
what this Mr. Deronda would say. What _does_ he say?"
"Nothing, chiefly. I sat with his party for a good hour last night on the
terrace, and he never spoke--and was not smoking either. He looked bored."
"Another reason why I should like to know him. I am always bored."
"I should think he would be charmed to have an introduction. Shall I bring
it about? Will you allow it, baroness?"
"Why not?--since he is related to Sir Hugo Mallinger. It is a new _rôle_
of yours, Gwendolen, to be always bored," continued Madame von Langen,
when Mr. Vandernoodt had moved away. "Until now you have always seemed
eager about something from morning till night."
"That is just because I am bored to death. If I am to leave off play I
must break my arm or my collar-bone. I must make something happen; unless
you will go into Switzerland and take me up the Matterhorn."
"Perhaps this Mr. Deronda's acquaintance will do instead of the
Matterhorn."
"Perhaps."
But Gwendolen did not make Deronda's acquaintance on this occasion. Mr.
Vandernoodt did not succeed in bringing him up to her that evening, and
when she re-entered her own room she found a letter recalling her home.
 
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    CHAPTER II.
      This man contrives a secret 'twixt us two,
      That he may quell me with his meeting eyes
      Like one who quells a lioness at bay.

    This was the letter Gwendolen found on her table:--
        DEAREST CHILD.--I have been expecting to hear from you for a week. In
        your last you said the Langens thought of leaving Leubronn and going
        to Baden. How could you be so thoughtless as to leave me in
        uncertainty about your address? I am in the greatest anxiety lest this
        should not reach you. In any case, you were to come home at the end of
        September, and I must now entreat you to return as quickly as
        possible, for if you spent all your money it would be out of my power
        to send you any more, and you must not borrow of the Langens, for I
        could not repay them. This is the sad truth, my child--I wish I could
        prepare you for it better--but a dreadful calamity has befallen us
        all. You know nothing about business and will not understand it; but
        Grapnell & Co. have failed for a million, and we are totally ruined--
        your aunt Gascoigne as well as I, only that your uncle has his
        benefice, so that by putting down their carriage and getting interest
        for the boys, the family can go on. All the property our poor father
        saved for us goes to pay the liabilities. There is nothing I can call
        my own. It is better you should know this at once, though it rends my
        heart to have to tell it you. Of course we cannot help thinking what a
        pity it was that you went away just when you did. But I shall never
        reproach you, my dear child; I would save you from all trouble if I
        could. On your way home you will have time to prepare yourself for the
        change you will find. We shall perhaps leave Offendene at once, for we
        hope that Mr. Haynes, who wanted it before, may be ready to take it
        off my hands. Of course we cannot go to the rectory--there is not a
        corner there to spare. We must get some hut or other to shelter us,
        and we must live on your uncle Gascoigne's charity, until I see what
        else can be done. I shall not be able to pay the debts to the
        tradesmen besides the servants' wages. Summon up your fortitude, my
        dear child; we must resign ourselves to God's will. But it is hard to
        resign one's self to Mr. Lassman's wicked recklessness, which they say
        was the cause of the failure. Your poor sisters can only cry with me
        and give me no help. If you were once here, there might be a break in
        the cloud--I always feel it impossible that you can have been meant
        for poverty. If the Langens wish to remain abroad, perhaps you can put
        yourself under some one else's care for the journey. But come as soon
        as you can to your afflicted and loving mamma,
        FANNY DAVILOW.
    The first effect of this letter on Gwendolen was half-stupefying. The
    implicit confidence that her destiny must be one of luxurious ease, where
    any trouble that occurred would be well clad and provided for, had been
    stronger in her own mind than in her mamma's, being fed there by her
    youthful blood and that sense of superior claims which made a large part
    of her consciousness. It was almost as difficult for her to believe
    suddenly that her position had become one of poverty and of humiliating
    dependence, as it would have been to get into the strong current of her
    blooming life the chill sense that her death would really come. She stood
    motionless for a few minutes, then tossed off her hat and automatically
    looked in the glass. The coils of her smooth light-brown hair were still
    in order perfect enough for a ball-room; and as on other nights, Gwendolen
    might have looked lingeringly at herself for pleasure (surely an allowable
    indulgence); but now she took no conscious note of her reflected beauty,
    and simply stared right before her as if she had been jarred by a hateful
    sound and was waiting for any sign of its cause. By-and-by she threw
    herself in the corner of the red velvet sofa, took up the letter again and
    read it twice deliberately, letting it at last fall on the ground, while
    she rested her clasped hands on her lap and sat perfectly still, shedding
    no tears. Her impulse was to survey and resist the situation rather than
    to wail over it. There was no inward exclamation of "Poor mamma!" Her
    mamma had never seemed to get much enjoyment out of life, and if Gwendolen
    had been at this moment disposed to feel pity she would have bestowed it
    on herself--for was she not naturally and rightfully the chief object of
    her mamma's anxiety too? But it was anger, it was resistance that
    possessed her; it was bitter vexation that she had lost her gains at
    roulette, whereas if her luck had continued through this one day she would
    have had a handsome sum to carry home, or she might have gone on playing
    and won enough to support them all. Even now was it not possible? She had
    only four napoleons left in her purse, but she possessed some ornaments
    which she could sell: a practice so common in stylish society at German
    baths that there was no need to be ashamed of it; and even if she had not
    received her mamma's letter, she would probably have decided to get money
    for an Etruscan necklace which she happened not to have been wearing since
    her arrival; nay, she might have done so with an agreeable sense that she
    was living with some intensity and escaping humdrum. With ten louis at her
    disposal and a return of her former luck, which seemed probable, what
    could she do better than go on playing for a few days? If her friends at
    home disapproved of the way in which she got the money, as they certainly
    would, still the money would be there. Gwendolen's imagination dwelt on
    this course and created agreeable consequences, but not with unbroken
    confidence and rising certainty as it would have done if she had been
    touched with the gambler's mania. She had gone to the roulette-table not
    because of passion, but in search of it: her mind was still sanely capable
    of picturing balanced probabilities, and while the chance of winning
    allured her, the chance of losing thrust itself on her with alternate
    strength and made a vision from which her pride sank sensitively. For she
    was resolved not to tell the Langens that any misfortune had befallen her
    family, or to make herself in any way indebted to their compassion; and if
    she were to part with her jewelry to any observable extent, they would
    interfere by inquiries and remonstrances. The course that held the least
    risk of intolerable annoyance was to raise money on her necklace early in
    the morning, tell the Langens that her mother desired her immediate return
    without giving a reason, and take the train for Brussels that evening. She
    had no maid with her, and the Langens might make difficulties about her
    returning home, but her will was peremptory.
    Instead of going to bed she made as brilliant a light as she could and
    began to pack, working diligently, though all the while visited by the
    scenes that might take place on the coming day--now by the tiresome
    explanations and farewells, and the whirling journey toward a changed
    home, now by the alternative of staying just another day and standing
    again at the roulette-table. But always in this latter scene there was the
    presence of that Deronda, watching her with exasperating irony, and--the
    two keen experiences were inevitably revived together--beholding her again
    forsaken by luck. This importunate image certainly helped to sway her
    resolve on the side of immediate departure, and to urge her packing to the
    point which would make a change of mind inconvenient. It had struck twelve
    when she came into her room, and by the time she was assuring herself that
    she had left out only what was necessary, the faint dawn was stealing
    through the white blinds and dulling her candles. What was the use of
    going to bed? Her cold bath was refreshment enough, and she saw that a
    slight trace of fatigue about the eyes only made her look the more
    interesting. Before six o'clock she was completely equipped in her gray
    traveling dress even to her felt hat, for she meant to walk out as soon as
    she could count on seeing other ladies on their way to the springs. And
    happening to be seated sideways before the long strip of mirror between
    her two windows she turned to look at herself, leaning her elbow on the
    back of the chair in an attitude that might have been chosen for her
    portrait. It is possible to have a strong self-love without any self-
    satisfaction, rather with a self-discontent which is the more intense
    because one's own little core of egoistic sensibility is a supreme care;
    but Gwendolen knew nothing of such inward strife. She had a _naïve_
    delight in her fortunate self, which any but the harshest saintliness will
    have some indulgence for in a girl who had every day seen a pleasant
    reflection of that self in her friends' flattery as well as in the
    looking-glass. And even in this beginning of troubles, while for lack of
    anything else to do she sat gazing at her image in the growing light, her
    face gathered a complacency gradual as the cheerfulness of the morning.
    Her beautiful lips curled into a more and more decided smile, till at last
    she took off her hat, leaned forward and kissed the cold glass which had
    looked so warm. How could she believe in sorrow? If it attacked her, she
    felt the force to crush it, to defy it, or run away from it, as she had
    done already. Anything seemed more possible than that she could go on
    bearing miseries, great or small.
    Madame von Langen never went out before breakfast, so that Gwendolen could
    safely end her early walk by taking her way homeward through the Obere
    Strasse in which was the needed shop, sure to be open after seven. At that
    hour any observers whom she minded would be either on their walks in the
    region of the springs, or would be still in their bedrooms; but certainly
    there was one grand hotel, the _Czarina_ from which eyes might follow her
    up to Mr. Wiener's door. This was a chance to be risked: might she not be
    going in to buy something which had struck her fancy? This implicit
    falsehood passed through her mind as she remembered that the _Czarina_ was
    Deronda's hotel; but she was then already far up the Obere Strasse, and
    she walked on with her usual floating movement, every line in her figure
    and drapery falling in gentle curves attractive to all eyes except those
    which discerned in them too close a resemblance to the serpent, and
    objected to the revival of serpent-worship. She looked neither to the
    right hand nor to the left, and transacted her business in the shop with a
    coolness which gave little Mr. Weiner nothing to remark except her proud
    grace of manner, and the superior size and quality of the three central
    turquoises in the necklace she offered him. They had belonged to a chain
    once her father's: but she had never known her father; and the necklace
    was in all respects the ornament she could most conveniently part with.
    Who supposes that it is an impossible contradiction to be superstitious
    and rationalizing at the same time? Roulette encourages a romantic
    superstition as to the chances of the game, and the most prosaic
    rationalism as to human sentiments which stand in the way of raising
    needful money. Gwendolen's dominant regret was that after all she had only
    nine louis to add to the four in her purse: these Jew dealers were so
    unscrupulous in taking advantage of Christians unfortunate at play! But
    she was the Langens' guest in their hired apartment, and had nothing to
    pay there: thirteen louis would do more than take her home; even if she
    determined on risking three, the remaining ten would more than suffice,
    since she meant to travel right on, day and night. As she turned homeward,
    nay, entered and seated herself in the _salon_ to await her friends and
    breakfast, she still wavered as to her immediate departure, or rather she
    had concluded to tell the Langens simply that she had had a letter from
    her mamma desiring her return, and to leave it still undecided when she
    should start. It was already the usual breakfast-time, and hearing some
    one enter as she was leaning back rather tired and hungry with her eyes
    shut, she rose expecting to see one or other of the Langens--the words
    which might determine her lingering at least another day, ready-formed to
    pass her lips. But it was the servant bringing in a small packet for Miss
    Harleth, which had at that moment been left at the door. Gwendolen took it
    in her hand and immediately hurried into her own room. She looked paler
    and more agitated than when she had first read her mamma's letter.
    Something--she never quite knew what--revealed to her before she opened
    the packet that it contained the necklace she had just parted with.
    Underneath the paper it was wrapped in a cambric handkerchief, and within
    this was a scrap of torn-off note-paper, on which was written with a
    pencil, in clear but rapid handwriting--"_A stranger who has found Miss
    Harleth's necklace returns it to her with the hope that she will not again
    risk the loss of it._"
    Gwendolen reddened with the vexation of wounded pride. A large corner of
    the handkerchief seemed to have been recklessly torn off to get rid of a
    mark; but she at once believed in the first image of "the stranger" that
    presented itself to her mind. It was Deronda; he must have seen her go
    into the shop; he must have gone in immediately after and repurchased the
    necklace. He had taken an unpardonable liberty, and had dared to place her
    in a thoroughly hateful position. What could she do?--Not, assuredly, act
    on her conviction that it was he who had sent her the necklace and
    straightway send it back to him: that would be to face the possibility
    that she had been mistaken; nay, even if the "stranger" were he and no
    other, it would be something too gross for her to let him know that she
    had divined this, and to meet him again with that recognition in their
    minds. He knew very well that he was entangling her in helpless
    humiliation: it was another way of smiling at her ironically, and taking
    the air of a supercilious mentor. Gwendolen felt the bitter tears of
    mortification rising and rolling down her cheeks. No one had ever before
    dared to treat her with irony and contempt. One thing was clear: she must
    carry out her resolution to quit this place at once; it was impossible for
    her to reappear in the public _salon_, still less stand at the gaming-
    table with the risk of seeing Deronda. Now came an importunate knock at
    the door: breakfast was ready. Gwendolen with a passionate movement thrust
    necklace, cambric, scrap of paper, and all into her _nécessaire_, pressed
    her handkerchief against her face, and after pausing a minute or two to
    summon back her proud self-control, went to join her friends. Such signs
    of tears and fatigue as were left seemed accordant enough with the account
    she at once gave of her having sat up to do her packing, instead of
    waiting for help from her friend's maid. There was much protestation, as
    she had expected, against her traveling alone, but she persisted in
    refusing any arrangements for companionship. She would be put into the
    ladies' compartment and go right on. She could rest exceedingly well in
    the train, and was afraid of nothing.
    In this way it happened that Gwendolen never reappeared at the roulette-
    table, but that Thursday evening left Leubronn for Brussels, and on
    Saturday morning arrived at Offendene, the home to which she and her
    family were soon to say a last good-bye.
     
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      Leo* 08.01.2010 03:04:15 (permalink)
      CHAPTER II.
        This man contrives a secret 'twixt us two,
        That he may quell me with his meeting eyes
        Like one who quells a lioness at bay.

      This was the letter Gwendolen found on her table:--
          DEAREST CHILD.--I have been expecting to hear from you for a week. In
          your last you said the Langens thought of leaving Leubronn and going
          to Baden. How could you be so thoughtless as to leave me in
          uncertainty about your address? I am in the greatest anxiety lest this
          should not reach you. In any case, you were to come home at the end of
          September, and I must now entreat you to return as quickly as
          possible, for if you spent all your money it would be out of my power
          to send you any more, and you must not borrow of the Langens, for I
          could not repay them. This is the sad truth, my child--I wish I could
          prepare you for it better--but a dreadful calamity has befallen us
          all. You know nothing about business and will not understand it; but
          Grapnell & Co. have failed for a million, and we are totally ruined--
          your aunt Gascoigne as well as I, only that your uncle has his
          benefice, so that by putting down their carriage and getting interest
          for the boys, the family can go on. All the property our poor father
          saved for us goes to pay the liabilities. There is nothing I can call
          my own. It is better you should know this at once, though it rends my
          heart to have to tell it you. Of course we cannot help thinking what a
          pity it was that you went away just when you did. But I shall never
          reproach you, my dear child; I would save you from all trouble if I
          could. On your way home you will have time to prepare yourself for the
          change you will find. We shall perhaps leave Offendene at once, for we
          hope that Mr. Haynes, who wanted it before, may be ready to take it
          off my hands. Of course we cannot go to the rectory--there is not a
          corner there to spare. We must get some hut or other to shelter us,
          and we must live on your uncle Gascoigne's charity, until I see what
          else can be done. I shall not be able to pay the debts to the
          tradesmen besides the servants' wages. Summon up your fortitude, my
          dear child; we must resign ourselves to God's will. But it is hard to
          resign one's self to Mr. Lassman's wicked recklessness, which they say
          was the cause of the failure. Your poor sisters can only cry with me
          and give me no help. If you were once here, there might be a break in
          the cloud--I always feel it impossible that you can have been meant
          for poverty. If the Langens wish to remain abroad, perhaps you can put
          yourself under some one else's care for the journey. But come as soon
          as you can to your afflicted and loving mamma,
       
          FANNY DAVILOW.
       
      The first effect of this letter on Gwendolen was half-stupefying. The
      implicit confidence that her destiny must be one of luxurious ease, where
      any trouble that occurred would be well clad and provided for, had been
      stronger in her own mind than in her mamma's, being fed there by her
      youthful blood and that sense of superior claims which made a large part
      of her consciousness. It was almost as difficult for her to believe
      suddenly that her position had become one of poverty and of humiliating
      dependence, as it would have been to get into the strong current of her
      blooming life the chill sense that her death would really come. She stood
      motionless for a few minutes, then tossed off her hat and automatically
      looked in the glass. The coils of her smooth light-brown hair were still
      in order perfect enough for a ball-room; and as on other nights, Gwendolen
      might have looked lingeringly at herself for pleasure (surely an allowable
      indulgence); but now she took no conscious note of her reflected beauty,
      and simply stared right before her as if she had been jarred by a hateful
      sound and was waiting for any sign of its cause. By-and-by she threw
      herself in the corner of the red velvet sofa, took up the letter again and
      read it twice deliberately, letting it at last fall on the ground, while
      she rested her clasped hands on her lap and sat perfectly still, shedding
      no tears. Her impulse was to survey and resist the situation rather than
      to wail over it. There was no inward exclamation of "Poor mamma!" Her
      mamma had never seemed to get much enjoyment out of life, and if Gwendolen
      had been at this moment disposed to feel pity she would have bestowed it
      on herself--for was she not naturally and rightfully the chief object of
      her mamma's anxiety too? But it was anger, it was resistance that
      possessed her; it was bitter vexation that she had lost her gains at
      roulette, whereas if her luck had continued through this one day she would
      have had a handsome sum to carry home, or she might have gone on playing
      and won enough to support them all. Even now was it not possible? She had
      only four napoleons left in her purse, but she possessed some ornaments
      which she could sell: a practice so common in stylish society at German
      baths that there was no need to be ashamed of it; and even if she had not
      received her mamma's letter, she would probably have decided to get money
      for an Etruscan necklace which she happened not to have been wearing since
      her arrival; nay, she might have done so with an agreeable sense that she
      was living with some intensity and escaping humdrum. With ten louis at her
      disposal and a return of her former luck, which seemed probable, what
      could she do better than go on playing for a few days? If her friends at
      home disapproved of the way in which she got the money, as they certainly
      would, still the money would be there. Gwendolen's imagination dwelt on
      this course and created agreeable consequences, but not with unbroken
      confidence and rising certainty as it would have done if she had been
      touched with the gambler's mania. She had gone to the roulette-table not
      because of passion, but in search of it: her mind was still sanely capable
      of picturing balanced probabilities, and while the chance of winning
      allured her, the chance of losing thrust itself on her with alternate
      strength and made a vision from which her pride sank sensitively. For she
      was resolved not to tell the Langens that any misfortune had befallen her
      family, or to make herself in any way indebted to their compassion; and if
      she were to part with her jewelry to any observable extent, they would
      interfere by inquiries and remonstrances. The course that held the least
      risk of intolerable annoyance was to raise money on her necklace early in
      the morning, tell the Langens that her mother desired her immediate return
      without giving a reason, and take the train for Brussels that evening. She
      had no maid with her, and the Langens might make difficulties about her
      returning home, but her will was peremptory.
      Instead of going to bed she made as brilliant a light as she could and
      began to pack, working diligently, though all the while visited by the
      scenes that might take place on the coming day--now by the tiresome
      explanations and farewells, and the whirling journey toward a changed
      home, now by the alternative of staying just another day and standing
      again at the roulette-table. But always in this latter scene there was the
      presence of that Deronda, watching her with exasperating irony, and--the
      two keen experiences were inevitably revived together--beholding her again
      forsaken by luck. This importunate image certainly helped to sway her
      resolve on the side of immediate departure, and to urge her packing to the
      point which would make a change of mind inconvenient. It had struck twelve
      when she came into her room, and by the time she was assuring herself that
      she had left out only what was necessary, the faint dawn was stealing
      through the white blinds and dulling her candles. What was the use of
      going to bed? Her cold bath was refreshment enough, and she saw that a
      slight trace of fatigue about the eyes only made her look the more
      interesting. Before six o'clock she was completely equipped in her gray
      traveling dress even to her felt hat, for she meant to walk out as soon as
      she could count on seeing other ladies on their way to the springs. And
      happening to be seated sideways before the long strip of mirror between
      her two windows she turned to look at herself, leaning her elbow on the
      back of the chair in an attitude that might have been chosen for her
      portrait. It is possible to have a strong self-love without any self-
      satisfaction, rather with a self-discontent which is the more intense
      because one's own little core of egoistic sensibility is a supreme care;
      but Gwendolen knew nothing of such inward strife. She had a _naïve_
      delight in her fortunate self, which any but the harshest saintliness will
      have some indulgence for in a girl who had every day seen a pleasant
      reflection of that self in her friends' flattery as well as in the
      looking-glass. And even in this beginning of troubles, while for lack of
      anything else to do she sat gazing at her image in the growing light, her
      face gathered a complacency gradual as the cheerfulness of the morning.
      Her beautiful lips curled into a more and more decided smile, till at last
      she took off her hat, leaned forward and kissed the cold glass which had
      looked so warm. How could she believe in sorrow? If it attacked her, she
      felt the force to crush it, to defy it, or run away from it, as she had
      done already. Anything seemed more possible than that she could go on
      bearing miseries, great or small.
      Madame von Langen never went out before breakfast, so that Gwendolen could
      safely end her early walk by taking her way homeward through the Obere
      Strasse in which was the needed shop, sure to be open after seven. At that
      hour any observers whom she minded would be either on their walks in the
      region of the springs, or would be still in their bedrooms; but certainly
      there was one grand hotel, the _Czarina_ from which eyes might follow her
      up to Mr. Wiener's door. This was a chance to be risked: might she not be
      going in to buy something which had struck her fancy? This implicit
      falsehood passed through her mind as she remembered that the _Czarina_ was
      Deronda's hotel; but she was then already far up the Obere Strasse, and
      she walked on with her usual floating movement, every line in her figure
      and drapery falling in gentle curves attractive to all eyes except those
      which discerned in them too close a resemblance to the serpent, and
      objected to the revival of serpent-worship. She looked neither to the
      right hand nor to the left, and transacted her business in the shop with a
      coolness which gave little Mr. Weiner nothing to remark except her proud
      grace of manner, and the superior size and quality of the three central
      turquoises in the necklace she offered him. They had belonged to a chain
      once her father's: but she had never known her father; and the necklace
      was in all respects the ornament she could most conveniently part with.
      Who supposes that it is an impossible contradiction to be superstitious
      and rationalizing at the same time? Roulette encourages a romantic
      superstition as to the chances of the game, and the most prosaic
      rationalism as to human sentiments which stand in the way of raising
      needful money. Gwendolen's dominant regret was that after all she had only
      nine louis to add to the four in her purse: these Jew dealers were so
      unscrupulous in taking advantage of Christians unfortunate at play! But
      she was the Langens' guest in their hired apartment, and had nothing to
      pay there: thirteen louis would do more than take her home; even if she
      determined on risking three, the remaining ten would more than suffice,
      since she meant to travel right on, day and night. As she turned homeward,
      nay, entered and seated herself in the _salon_ to await her friends and
      breakfast, she still wavered as to her immediate departure, or rather she
      had concluded to tell the Langens simply that she had had a letter from
      her mamma desiring her return, and to leave it still undecided when she
      should start. It was already the usual breakfast-time, and hearing some
      one enter as she was leaning back rather tired and hungry with her eyes
      shut, she rose expecting to see one or other of the Langens--the words
      which might determine her lingering at least another day, ready-formed to
      pass her lips. But it was the servant bringing in a small packet for Miss
      Harleth, which had at that moment been left at the door. Gwendolen took it
      in her hand and immediately hurried into her own room. She looked paler
      and more agitated than when she had first read her mamma's letter.
      Something--she never quite knew what--revealed to her before she opened
      the packet that it contained the necklace she had just parted with.
      Underneath the paper it was wrapped in a cambric handkerchief, and within
      this was a scrap of torn-off note-paper, on which was written with a
      pencil, in clear but rapid handwriting--"_A stranger who has found Miss
      Harleth's necklace returns it to her with the hope that she will not again
      risk the loss of it._"
      Gwendolen reddened with the vexation of wounded pride. A large corner of
      the handkerchief seemed to have been recklessly torn off to get rid of a
      mark; but she at once believed in the first image of "the stranger" that
      presented itself to her mind. It was Deronda; he must have seen her go
      into the shop; he must have gone in immediately after and repurchased the
      necklace. He had taken an unpardonable liberty, and had dared to place her
      in a thoroughly hateful position. What could she do?--Not, assuredly, act
      on her conviction that it was he who had sent her the necklace and
      straightway send it back to him: that would be to face the possibility
      that she had been mistaken; nay, even if the "stranger" were he and no
      other, it would be something too gross for her to let him know that she
      had divined this, and to meet him again with that recognition in their
      minds. He knew very well that he was entangling her in helpless
      humiliation: it was another way of smiling at her ironically, and taking
      the air of a supercilious mentor. Gwendolen felt the bitter tears of
      mortification rising and rolling down her cheeks. No one had ever before
      dared to treat her with irony and contempt. One thing was clear: she must
      carry out her resolution to quit this place at once; it was impossible for
      her to reappear in the public _salon_, still less stand at the gaming-
      table with the risk of seeing Deronda. Now came an importunate knock at
      the door: breakfast was ready. Gwendolen with a passionate movement thrust
      necklace, cambric, scrap of paper, and all into her _nécessaire_, pressed
      her handkerchief against her face, and after pausing a minute or two to
      summon back her proud self-control, went to join her friends. Such signs
      of tears and fatigue as were left seemed accordant enough with the account
      she at once gave of her having sat up to do her packing, instead of
      waiting for help from her friend's maid. There was much protestation, as
      she had expected, against her traveling alone, but she persisted in
      refusing any arrangements for companionship. She would be put into the
      ladies' compartment and go right on. She could rest exceedingly well in
      the train, and was afraid of nothing.
      In this way it happened that Gwendolen never reappeared at the roulette-
      table, but that Thursday evening left Leubronn for Brussels, and on
      Saturday morning arrived at Offendene, the home to which she and her
      family were soon to say a last good-bye.

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        Leo* 19.01.2010 00:51:44 (permalink)
        CHAPTER III.
         
         
           "Let no flower of the spring pass by us; let us crown ourselves with
            rosebuds before they be withered."--BOOK OF WISDOM.

        Pity that Offendene was not the home of Miss Harleth's childhood, or
        endeared to her by family memories! A human life, I think, should be well
        rooted in some spot of a native land, where it may get the love of tender
        kinship for the face of earth, for the labors men go forth to, for the
        sounds and accents that haunt it, for whatever will give that early home a
        familiar unmistakable difference amid the future widening of knowledge: a
        spot where the definiteness of early memories may be inwrought with
        affection, and--kindly acquaintance with all neighbors, even to the dogs
        and donkeys, may spread not by sentimental effort and reflection, but as a
        sweet habit of the blood. At five years old, mortals are not prepared to
        be citizens of the world, to be stimulated by abstract nouns, to soar
        above preference into impartiality; and that prejudice in favor of milk
        with which we blindly begin, is a type of the way body and soul must get
        nourished at least for a time. The best introduction to astronomy is to
        think of the nightly heavens as a little lot of stars belonging to one's
        own homestead.
        But this blessed persistence in which affection can take root had been
        wanting in Gwendolen's life. It was only a year before her recall from
        Leubronn that Offendene had been chosen as her mamma's home, simply for
        its nearness to Pennicote Rectory, and that Mrs. Davilow, Gwendolen, and
        her four half-sisters (the governess and the maid following in another
        vehicle) had been driven along the avenue for the first time, on a late
        October afternoon when the rooks were crawing loudly above them, and the
        yellow elm-leaves were whirling.
        The season suited the aspect of the old oblong red-brick house, rather too
        anxiously ornamented with stone at every line, not excepting the double
        row of narrow windows and the large square portico. The stone encouraged a
        greenish lichen, the brick a powdery gray, so that though the building was
        rigidly rectangular there was no harshness in the physiognomy which it
        turned to the three avenues cut east, west and south in the hundred yards'
        breadth of old plantation encircling the immediate grounds. One would have
        liked the house to have been lifted on a knoll, so as to look beyond its
        own little domain to the long thatched roofs of the distant villages, the
        church towers, the scattered homesteads, the gradual rise of surging
        woods, and the green breadths of undulating park which made the beautiful
        face of the earth in that part of Wessex. But though standing thus behind,
        a screen amid flat pastures, it had on one side a glimpse of the wider
        world in the lofty curves of the chalk downs, grand steadfast forms played
        over by the changing days.
        The house was but just large enough to be called a mansion, and was
        moderately rented, having no manor attached to it, and being rather
        difficult to let with its sombre furniture and faded upholstery. But
        inside and outside it was what no beholder could suppose to be inhabited
        by retired trades-people: a certainty which was worth many conveniences to
        tenants who not only had the taste that shrinks from new finery, but also
        were in that border-territory of rank where annexation is a burning topic:
        and to take up her abode in a house which had once sufficed for dowager
        countesses gave a perceptible tinge to Mrs. Davilow's satisfaction in
        having an establishment of her own. This, rather mysteriously to
        Gwendolen, appeared suddenly possible on the death of her step-father,
        Captain Davilow, who had for the last nine years joined his family only in
        a brief and fitful manner, enough to reconcile them to his long absences;
        but she cared much more for the fact than for the explanation. All her
        prospects had become more agreeable in consequence. She had disliked their
        former way of life, roving from one foreign watering-place or Parisian
        apartment to another, always feeling new antipathies to new suites of
        hired furniture, and meeting new people under conditions which made her
        appear of little importance; and the variation of having passed two years
        at a showy school, where, on all occasions of display, she had been put
        foremost, had only deepened her sense that so exceptional a person as
        herself could hardly remain in ordinary circumstances or in a social
        position less than advantageous. Any fear of this latter evil was banished
        now that her mamma was to have an establishment; for on the point of birth
        Gwendolen was quite easy. She had no notion how her maternal grandfather
        got the fortune inherited by his two daughters; but he had been a West
        Indian--which seemed to exclude further question; and she knew that her
        father's family was so high as to take no notice of her mamma, who
        nevertheless preserved with much pride the miniature of a Lady Molly in
        that connection. She would probably have known much more about her father
        but for a little incident which happened when she was twelve years old.
        Mrs. Davilow had brought out, as she did only at wide intervals, various
        memorials of her first husband, and while showing his miniature to
        Gwendolen recalled with a fervor which seemed to count on a peculiar
        filial sympathy, the fact that dear papa had died when his little daughter
        was in long clothes. Gwendolen, immediately thinking of the unlovable
        step-father whom she had been acquainted with the greater part of her life
        while her frocks were short, said--
        "Why did you marry again, mamma? It would have been nicer if you had not."
        Mrs. Davilow colored deeply, a slight convulsive movement passed over her
        face, and straightway shutting up the memorials she said, with a violence
        quite unusual in her--
        "You have no feeling, child!"
        Gwendolen, who was fond of her mamma, felt hurt and ashamed, and had never
        since dared to ask a question about her father.
        This was not the only instance in which she had brought on herself the
        pain of some filial compunction. It was always arranged, when possible,
        that she should have a small bed in her mamma's room; for Mrs. Davilow's
        motherly tenderness clung chiefly to her eldest girl, who had been born in
        her happier time. One night under an attack of pain she found that the
        specific regularly placed by her bedside had been forgotten, and begged
        Gwendolen to get out of bed and reach it for her. That healthy young lady,
        snug and warm as a rosy infant in her little couch, objected to step out
        into the cold, and lying perfectly still, grumbling a refusal. Mrs.
        Davilow went without the medicine and never reproached her daughter; but
        the next day Gwendolen was keenly conscious of what must be in her mamma's
        mind, and tried to make amends by caresses which cost her no effort.
        Having always been the pet and pride of the household, waited on by
        mother, sisters, governess and maids, as if she had been a princess in
        exile, she naturally found it difficult to think her own pleasure less
        important than others made it, and when it was positively thwarted felt an
        astonished resentment apt, in her cruder days, to vent itself in one of
        those passionate acts which look like a contradiction of habitual
        tendencies. Though never even as a child thoughtlessly cruel, nay
        delighting to rescue drowning insects and watch their recovery, there was
        a disagreeable silent remembrance of her having strangled her sister's
        canary-bird in a final fit of exasperation at its shrill singing which had
        again and again jarringly interrupted her own. She had taken pains to buy
        a white mouse for her sister in retribution, and though inwardly excusing
        herself on the ground of a peculiar sensitiveness which was a mark of her
        general superiority, the thought of that infelonious murder had always
        made her wince. Gwendolen's nature was not remorseless, but she liked to
        make her penances easy, and now that she was twenty and more, some of her
        native force had turned into a self-control by which she guarded herself
        from penitential humiliation. There was more show of fire and will in her
        than ever, but there was more calculation underneath it.
        On this day of arrival at Offendene, which not even Mrs. Davilow had seen
        before--the place having been taken for her by her brother-in-law, Mr.
        Gascoigne--when all had got down from the carriage, and were standing
        under the porch in front of the open door, so that they could have a
        general view of the place and a glimpse of the stone hall and staircase
        hung with sombre pictures, but enlivened by a bright wood fire, no one
        spoke; mamma, the four sisters and the governess all looked at Gwendolen,
        as if their feelings depended entirely on her decision. Of the girls, from
        Alice in her sixteenth year to Isabel in her tenth, hardly anything could
        be said on a first view, but that they were girlish, and that their black
        dresses were getting shabby. Miss Merry was elderly and altogether neutral
        in expression. Mrs. Davilow's worn beauty seemed the more pathetic for the
        look of entire appeal which she cast at Gwendolen, who was glancing round
        at the house, the landscape and the entrance hall with an air of rapid
        judgment. Imagine a young race-horse in the paddock among untrimmed ponies
        and patient hacks.
        "Well, dear, what do you think of the place," said Mrs. Davilow at last,
        in a gentle, deprecatory tone.
        "I think it is charming," said Gwendolen, quickly. "A romantic place;
        anything delightful may happen in it; it would be a good background for
        anything. No one need be ashamed of living here."
        "There is certainly nothing common about it."
        "Oh, it would do for fallen royalty or any sort of grand poverty. We ought
        properly to have been living in splendor, and have come down to this. It
        would have been as romantic as could be. But I thought my uncle and aunt
        Gascoigne would be here to meet us, and my cousin Anna," added Gwendolen,
        her tone changed to sharp surprise.
        "We are early," said Mrs. Davilow, and entering the hall, she said to the
        housekeeper who came forward, "You expect Mr. and Mrs. Gascoigne?"
        "Yes, madam; they were here yesterday to give particular orders about the
        fires and the dinner. But as to fires, I've had 'em in all the rooms for
        the last week, and everything is well aired. I could wish some of the
        furniture paid better for all the cleaning it's had, but I _think_ you'll
        see the brasses have been done justice to. I _think_ when Mr. and Mrs.
        Gascoigne come, they'll tell you nothing has been neglected. They'll be
        here at five, for certain."
        This satisfied Gwendolen, who was not prepared to have their arrival
        treated with indifference; and after tripping a little way up the matted
        stone staircase to take a survey there, she tripped down again, and
        followed by all the girls looked into each of the rooms opening from the
        hall--the dining-room all dark oak and worn red satin damask, with a copy
        of snarling, worrying dogs from Snyders over the side-board, and a Christ
        breaking bread over the mantel-piece; the library with a general aspect
        and smell of old brown-leather; and lastly, the drawing-room, which was
        entered through a small antechamber crowded with venerable knick-knacks.
        "Mamma, mamma, pray come here!" said Gwendolen, Mrs. Davilow having
        followed slowly in talk with the housekeeper. "Here is an organ. I will be
        Saint Cecilia: some one shall paint me as Saint Cecilia. Jocosa (this was
        her name for Miss Merry), let down my hair. See, mamma?"
        She had thrown off her hat and gloves, and seated herself before the organ
        in an admirable pose, looking upward; while the submissive and sad Jocosa
        took out the one comb which fastened the coil of hair, and then shook out
        the mass till it fell in a smooth light-brown stream far below its owner's
        slim waist.
        Mrs. Davilow smiled and said, "A charming picture, my dear!" not
        indifferent to the display of her pet, even in the presence of a
        housekeeper. Gwendolen rose and laughed with delight. All this seemed
        quite to the purpose on entering a new house which was so excellent a
        background.
        "What a queer, quaint, picturesque room!" she went on, looking about her.
        "I like these old embroidered chairs, and the garlands on the wainscot,
        and the pictures that may be anything. That one with the ribs--nothing but
        ribs and darkness--I should think that is Spanish, mamma."
        "Oh, Gwendolen!" said the small Isabel, in a tone of astonishment, while
        she held open a hinged panel of the wainscot at the other end of the room.
        Every one, Gwendolen first, went to look. The opened panel had disclosed
        the picture of an upturned dead face, from which an obscure figure seemed
        to be fleeing with outstretched arms. "How horrible!" said Mrs. Davilow,
        with a look of mere disgust; but Gwendolen shuddered silently, and Isabel,
        a plain and altogether inconvenient child with an alarming memory, said--
        "You will never stay in this room by yourself, Gwendolen."
        "How dare you open things which were meant to be shut up, you perverse
        little creature?" said Gwendolen, in her angriest tone. Then snatching the
        panel out of the hand of the culprit, she closed it hastily, saying,
        "There is a lock--where is the key? Let the key be found, or else let one
        be made, and let nobody open it again; or rather, let the key be brought
        to me."
        At this command to everybody in general Gwendolen turned with a face which
        was flushed in reaction from her chill shudder, and said, "Let us go up to
        our own room, mamma."
        The housekeeper on searching found the key in the drawer of the cabinet
        close by the panel, and presently handed it to Bugle, the lady's-maid,
        telling her significantly to give it to her Royal Highness.
        "I don't know what you mean, Mrs. Startin," said Bugle, who had been busy
        up-stairs during the scene in the drawing-room, and was rather offended at
        this irony in a new servant.
        "I mean the young lady that's to command us all-and well worthy for looks
        and figure," replied Mrs. Startin in propitiation. "She'll know what key
        it is."
        "If you have laid out what we want, go and see to the others, Bugle,"
        Gwendolen had said, when she and Mrs. Davilow entered their black and
        yellow bedroom, where a pretty little white couch was prepared by the side
        of the black and yellow catafalque known as the best bed. "I will help
        mamma."
        But her first movement was to go to the tall mirror between the windows,
        which reflected herself and the room completely, while her mamma sat down
        and also looked at the reflection.
        "That is a becoming glass, Gwendolen; or is it the black and gold color
        that sets you off?" said Mrs. Davilow, as Gwendolen stood obliquely with
        her three-quarter face turned toward the mirror, and her left hand
        brushing back the stream of hair.
        "I should make a tolerable St. Cecilia with some white roses on my head,"
        said Gwendolen,--"only how about my nose, mamma? I think saint's noses
        never in the least turn up. I wish you had given me your perfectly
        straight nose; it would have done for any sort of character--a nose of all
        work. Mine is only a happy nose; it would not do so well for tragedy."
        "Oh, my dear, any nose will do to be miserable with in this world," said
        Mrs. Davilow, with a deep, weary sigh, throwing her black bonnet on the
        table, and resting her elbow near it.
        "Now, mamma," said Gwendolen, in a strongly remonstrant tone, turning away
        from the glass with an air of vexation, "don't begin to be dull here. It
        spoils all my pleasure, and everything may be so happy now. What have you
        to be gloomy about _now_?"
        "Nothing, dear," said Mrs. Davilow, seeming to rouse herself, and
        beginning to take off her dress. "It is always enough for me to see you
        happy."
        "But you should be happy yourself," said Gwendolen, still discontentedly,
        though going to help her mamma with caressing touches. "Can nobody be
        happy after they are quite young? You have made me feel sometimes as if
        nothing were of any use. With the girls so troublesome, and Jocosa so
        dreadfully wooden and ugly, and everything make-shift about us, and you
        looking so dull--what was the use of my being anything? But now you
        _might_ be happy."
        "So I shall, dear," said Mrs. Davilow, patting the cheek that was bending
        near her.
        "Yes, but really. Not with a sort of make-believe," said Gwendolen, with
        resolute perseverance. "See what a hand and arm!--much more beautiful than
        mine. Any one can see you were altogether more beautiful."
        "No, no, dear; I was always heavier. Never half so charming as you are."
        "Well, but what is the use of my being charming, if it is to end in my
        being dull and not minding anything? Is that what marriage always comes
        to?"
        "No, child, certainly not. Marriage is the only happy state for a woman,
        as I trust you will prove."
        "I will not put up with it if it is not a happy state. I am determined to
        be happy--at least not to go on muddling away my life as other people do,
        being and doing nothing remarkable. I have made up my mind not to let
        other people interfere with me as they have done. Here is some warm water
        ready for you, mamma," Gwendolen ended, proceeding to take off her own
        dress and then waiting to have her hair wound up by her mamma.
        There was silence for a minute or two, till Mrs. Davilow said, while
        coiling the daughter's hair, "I am sure I have never crossed you,
        Gwendolen."
        "You often want me to do what I don't like."
        "You mean, to give Alice lessons?"
        "Yes. And I have done it because you asked me. But I don't see why I
        should, else. It bores me to death, she is so slow. She has no ear for
        music, or language, or anything else. It would be much better for her to
        be ignorant, mamma: it is her _rôle_, she would do it well."
        "That is a hard thing to say of your poor sister, Gwendolen, who is so
        good to you, and waits on you hand and foot."
        "I don't see why it is hard to call things by their right names, and put
        them in their proper places. The hardship is for me to have to waste my
        time on her. Now let me fasten up your hair, mamma."
        "We must make haste; your uncle and aunt will be here soon. For heaven's
        sake, don't be scornful to _them_, my dear child! or to your cousin Anna,
        whom you will always be going out with. Do promise me, Gwendolen. You
        know, you can't expect Anna to be equal to you."
        "I don't want her to be equal," said Gwendolen, with a toss of her head
        and a smile, and the discussion ended there.
        When Mr. and Mrs. Gascoigne and their daughter came, Gwendolen, far from
        being scornful, behaved as prettily as possible to them. She was
        introducing herself anew to relatives who had not seen her since the
        comparatively unfinished age of sixteen, and she was anxious--no, not
        anxious, but resolved that they should admire her.
        Mrs. Gascoigne bore a family likeness to her sister. But she was darker
        and slighter, her face was unworn by grief, her movements were less
        languid, her expression more alert and critical as that of a rector's wife
        bound to exert a beneficent authority. Their closest resemblance lay in a
        non-resistant disposition, inclined to imitation and obedience; but this,
        owing to the difference in their circumstances, had led them to very
        different issues. The younger sister had been indiscreet, or at least
        unfortunate in her marriages; the elder believed herself the most enviable
        of wives, and her pliancy had ended in her sometimes taking shapes of
        surprising definiteness. Many of her opinions, such as those on church
        government and the character of Archbishop Laud, seemed too decided under
        every alteration to have been arrived at otherwise than by a wifely
        receptiveness. And there was much to encourage trust in her husband's
        authority. He had some agreeable virtues, some striking advantages, and
        the failings that were imputed to him all leaned toward the side of
        success.
        One of his advantages was a fine person, which perhaps was even more
        impressive at fifty-seven than it had been earlier in life. There were no
        distinctively clerical lines in the face, no tricks of starchiness or of
        affected ease: in his Inverness cape he could not have been identified
        except as a gentleman with handsome dark features, a nose which began with
        an intention to be aquiline but suddenly became straight, and iron-gray,
        hair. Perhaps he owed this freedom from the sort of professional make-up
        which penetrates skin, tones and gestures and defies all drapery, to the
        fact that he had once been Captain Gaskin, having taken orders and a
        diphthong but shortly before his engagement to Miss Armyn. If any one had
        objected that his preparation for the clerical function was inadequate,
        his friends might have asked who made a better figure in it, who preached
        better or had more authority in his parish? He had a native gift for
        administration, being tolerant both of opinions and conduct, because he
        felt himself able to overrule them, and was free from the irritations of
        conscious feebleness. He smiled pleasantly at the foible of a taste which
        he did not share--at floriculture or antiquarianism for example, which
        were much in vogue among his fellow-clergyman in the diocese: for himself,
        he preferred following the history of a campaign, or divining from his
        knowledge of Nesselrode's motives what would have been his conduct if our
        cabinet had taken a different course. Mr. Gascoigne's tone of thinking
        after some long-quieted fluctuations had become ecclesiastical rather than
        theological; not the modern Anglican, but what he would have called sound
        English, free from nonsense; such as became a man who looked at a national
        religion by daylight, and saw it in its relation to other things. No
        clerical magistrate had greater weight at sessions, or less of mischievous
        impracticableness in relation to worldly affairs. Indeed, the worst
        imputation thrown out against him was worldliness: it could not be proved
        that he forsook the less fortunate, but it was not to be denied that the
        friendships he cultivated were of a kind likely to be useful to the father
        of six sons and two daughters; and bitter observers--for in Wessex, say
        ten years ago, there were persons whose bitterness may now seem
        incredible--remarked that the color of his opinions had changed in
        consistency with this principle of action. But cheerful, successful
        worldliness has a false air of being more selfish than the acrid,
        unsuccessful kind, whose secret history is summed up in the terrible
        words, "Sold, but not paid for."
        Gwendolen wondered that she had not better remembered how very fine a man
        her uncle was; but at the age of sixteen she was a less capable and more
        indifferent judge. At present it was a matter of extreme interest to her
        that she was to have the near countenance of a dignified male relative,
        and that the family life would cease to be entirely, insipidly feminine.
        She did not intend that her uncle should control her, but she saw at once
        that it would be altogether agreeable to her that he should be proud of
        introducing her as his niece. And there was every sign of his being likely
        to feel that pride. He certainly looked at her with admiration as he
        said--
        "You have outgrown Anna, my dear," putting his arm tenderly round his
        daughter, whose shy face was a tiny copy of his own, and drawing her
        forward. "She is not so old as you by a year, but her growing days are
        certainly over. I hope you will be excellent companions."
        He did give a comparing glance at his daughter, but if he saw her
        inferiority, he might also see that Anna's timid appearance and miniature
        figure must appeal to a different taste from that which was attracted by
        Gwendolen, and that the girls could hardly be rivals. Gwendolen at least,
        was aware of this, and kissed her cousin with real cordiality as well as
        grace, saying, "A companion is just what I want. I am so glad we are come
        to live here. And mamma will be much happier now she is near you, aunt."
        The aunt trusted indeed that it would be so, and felt it a blessing that a
        suitable home had been vacant in their uncle's parish. Then, of course,
        notice had to be taken of the four other girls, whom Gwendolen had always
        felt to be superfluous: all of a girlish average that made four units
        utterly unimportant, and yet from her earliest days an obtrusive
        influential fact in her life. She was conscious of having been much kinder
        to them than could have been expected. And it was evident to her that her
        uncle and aunt also felt it a pity there were so many girls:--what
        rational person could feel otherwise, except poor mamma, who never would
        see how Alice set up her shoulders and lifted her eyebrows till she had no
        forehead left, how Bertha and Fanny whispered and tittered together about
        everything, or how Isabel was always listening and staring and forgetting
        where she was, and treading on the toes of her suffering elders?
        "You have brothers, Anna," said Gwendolen, while the sisters were being
        noticed. "I think you are enviable there."
        "Yes," said Anna, simply. "I am very fond of them; but of course their
        education is a great anxiety to papa. He used to say they made me a
        tomboy. I really was a great romp with Rex. I think you will like Rex. He
        will come home before Christmas."
        "I remember I used to think you rather wild and shy; but it is difficult
        now to imagine you a romp," said Gwendolen, smiling.
        "Of course, I am altered now; I am come out, and all that. But in reality
        I like to go blackberrying with Edwy and Lotta as well as ever. I am not
        very fond of going out; but I dare say I shall like it better now you will
        be often with me. I am not at all clever, and I never know what to say. It
        seems so useless to say what everybody knows, and I can think of nothing
        else, except what papa says."
        "I shall like going out with you very much," said Gwendolen, well disposed
        toward this _naïve_ cousin. "Are you fond of riding?"
        "Yes, but we have only one Shetland pony amongst us. Papa says he can't
        afford more, besides the carriage-horses and his own nag; he has so many
        expenses."
        "I intend to have a horse and ride a great deal now," said Gwendolen, in a
        tone of decision. "Is the society pleasant in this neighborhood?"
        "Papa says it is, very. There are the clergymen all about, you know; and
        the Quallons, and the Arrowpoints, and Lord Brackenshaw, and Sir Hugo
        Mallinger's place, where there is nobody--that's very nice, because we
        make picnics there--and two or three families at Wanchester: oh, and old
        Mrs. Vulcany, at Nuttingwood, and--"
        But Anna was relieved of this tax on her descriptive powers by the
        announcement of dinner, and Gwendolen's question was soon indirectly
        answered by her uncle, who dwelt much on the advantages he had secured for
        them in getting a place like Offendene. Except the rent, it involved no
        more expense than an ordinary house at Wanchester would have done.
        "And it is always worth while to make a little sacrifice for a good style
        of house," said Mr. Gascoigne, in his easy, pleasantly confident tone,
        which made the world in general seem a very manageable place of residence:
        "especially where there is only a lady at the head. All the best people
        will call upon you; and you need give no expensive dinners. Of course, I
        have to spend a good deal in that way; it is a large item. But then I get
        my house for nothing. If I had to pay three hundred a year for my house I
        could not keep a table. My boys are too great a drain on me. You are
        better off than we are, in proportion; there is no great drain on you now,
        after your house and carriage."
        "I assure you, Fanny, now that the children are growing up, I am obliged
        to cut and contrive," said Mrs. Gascoigne. "I am not a good manager by
        nature, but Henry has taught me. He is wonderful for making the best of
        everything; he allows himself no extras, and gets his curates for nothing.
        It is rather hard that he has not been made a prebendary or something, as
        others have been, considering the friends he has made and the need there
        is for men of moderate opinions in all respects. If the Church is to keep
        its position, ability and character ought to tell."
        "Oh, my dear Nancy, you forget the old story--thank Heaven, there are
        three hundred as good as I. And ultimately, we shall have no reason to
        complain, I am pretty sure. There could hardly be a more thorough friend
        than Lord Brackenshaw--your landlord, you know, Fanny. Lady Brackenshaw
        will call upon you. And I have spoken for Gwendolen to be a member of our
        Archery Club--the Brackenshaw Archery Club--the most select thing
        anywhere. That is, if she has no objection," added Mr. Gascoigne, looking
        at Gwendolen with pleasant irony.
        "I should like it of all things," said Gwendolen. "There is nothing I
        enjoy more than taking aim--and hitting," she ended, with a pretty nod and
        smile.
        "Our Anna, poor child, is too short-sighed for archery. But I consider
        myself a first-rate shot, and you shall practice with me. I must make you
        an accomplished archer before our great meeting in July. In fact, as to
        neighborhood, you could hardly be better placed. There are the
        Arrowpoints--they are some of our best people. Miss Arrowpoint is a
        delightful girl--she has been presented at Court. They have a magnificent
        place--Quetcham Hall--worth seeing in point of art; and their parties, to
        which you are sure to be invited, are the best things of the sort we have.
        The archdeacon is intimate there, and they have always a good kind of
        people staying in the house. Mrs. Arrowpoint is peculiar, certainly;
        something of a caricature, in fact; but well-meaning. And Miss Arrowpoint
        is as nice as possible. It is not all young ladies who have mothers as
        handsome and graceful as yours and Anna's."
        Mrs. Davilow smiled faintly at this little compliment, but the husband and
        wife looked affectionately at each other, and Gwendolen thought, "My uncle
        and aunt, at least, are happy: they are not dull and dismal." Altogether,
        she felt satisfied with her prospects at Offendene, as a great improvement
        on anything she had known. Even the cheap curates, she incidentally
        learned, were almost always young men of family, and Mr. Middleton, the
        actual curate, was said to be quite an acquisition: it was only a pity he
        was so soon to leave.
        But there was one point which she was so anxious to gain that she could
        not allow the evening to pass without taking her measures toward securing
        it. Her mamma, she knew, intended to submit entirely to her uncle's
        judgment with regard to expenditure; and the submission was not merely
        prudential, for Mrs. Davilow, conscious that she had always been seen
        under a cloud as poor dear Fanny, who had made a sad blunder with her
        second marriage, felt a hearty satisfaction in being frankly and cordially
        identified with her sister's family, and in having her affairs canvassed
        and managed with an authority which presupposed a genuine interest. Thus
        the question of a suitable saddle-horse, which had been sufficiently
        discussed with mamma, had to be referred to Mr. Gascoigne; and after
        Gwendolen had played on the piano, which had been provided from
        Wanchester, had sung to her hearers' admiration, and had induced her uncle
        to join her in a duet--what more softening influence than this on any
        uncle who would have sung finely if his time had not been too much taken
        up by graver matters?--she seized the opportune moment for saying, "Mamma,
        you have not spoken to my uncle about my riding."
        "Gwendolen desires above all things to have a horse to ride--a pretty,
        light, lady's horse," said Mrs. Davilow, looking at Mr. Gascoigne. "Do you
        think we can manage it?"
        Mr. Gascoigne projected his lower lip and lifted his handsome eyebrows
        sarcastically at Gwendolen, who had seated herself with much grace on the
        elbow of her mamma's chair.
        "We could lend her the pony sometimes," said Mrs. Gascoigne, watching her
        husband's face, and feeling quite ready to disapprove if he did.
        "That might be inconveniencing others, aunt, and would be no pleasure to
        me. I cannot endure ponies," said Gwendolen. "I would rather give up some
        other indulgence and have a horse." (Was there ever a young lady or
        gentleman not ready to give up an unspecified indulgence for the sake of
        the favorite one specified?)
        "She rides so well. She has had lessons, and the riding-master said she
        had so good a seat and hand she might be trusted with any mount," said
        Davilow, who, even if she had not wished her darling to have the horse,
        would not have dared to be lukewarm in trying to get it for her.
        "There is the price of the horse--a good sixty with the best chance, and
        then his keep," said Mr. Gascoigne, in a tone which, though demurring,
        betrayed the inward presence of something that favored the demand. "There
        are the carriage-horses--already a heavy item. And remember what you
        ladies cost in toilet now."
        "I really wear nothing but two black dresses," said Mrs. Davilow, hastily.
        "And the younger girls, of course, require no toilet at present. Besides,
        Gwendolen will save me so much by giving her sisters lessons." Here Mrs.
        Davilow's delicate cheek showed a rapid blush. "If it were not for that, I
        must really have a more expensive governess, and masters besides."
        Gwendolen felt some anger with her mamma, but carefully concealed it.
        "That is good--that is decidedly good," said Mr. Gascoigne, heartily,
        looking at his wife. And Gwendolen, who, it must be owned, was a deep
        young lady, suddenly moved away to the other end of the long drawing-room,
        and busied herself with arranging pieces of music.
        "The dear child has had no indulgences, no pleasures," said Mrs. Davilow,
        in a pleading undertone. "I feel the expense is rather imprudent in this
        first year of our settling. But she really needs the exercise--she needs
        cheering. And if you were to see her on horseback, it is something
        splendid."
        "It is what we could not afford for Anna," said Mrs. Gascoigne. "But she,
        dear child, would ride Lotta's donkey and think it good enough." (Anna was
        absorbed in a game with Isabel, who had hunted out an old back-gammon-
        board, and had begged to sit up an extra hour.)
        "Certainly, a fine woman never looks better than on horseback," said Mr.
        Gascoigne. "And Gwendolen has the figure for it. I don't say the thing
        should not be considered."
        "We might try it for a time, at all events. It can be given up, if
        necessary," said Mrs. Davilow.
        "Well, I will consult Lord Brackenshaw's head groom. He is my _fidus
        Achates_ in the horsey way."
        "Thanks," said Mrs. Davilow, much relieved. "You are very kind."
        "That he always is," said Mrs. Gascoigne. And later that night, when she
        and her husband were in private, she said--
        "I thought you were almost too indulgent about the horse for Gwendolen.
        She ought not to claim so much more than your own daughter would think of.
        Especially before we see how Fanny manages on her income. And you really
        have enough to do without taking all this trouble on yourself."
        "My dear Nancy, one must look at things from every point of view. This
        girl is really worth some expense: you don't often see her equal. She
        ought to make a first-rate marriage, and I should not be doing my duty if
        I spared my trouble in helping her forward. You know yourself she has been
        under a disadvantage with such a father-in-law, and a second family,
        keeping her always in the shade. I feel for the girl, And I should like
        your sister and her family now to have the benefit of your having married
        rather a better specimen of our kind than she did."
        "Rather better! I should think so. However, it is for me to be grateful
        that you will take so much on your shoulders for the sake of my sister and
        her children. I am sure I would not grudge anything to poor Fanny. But
        there is one thing I have been thinking of, though you have never
        mentioned it."
        "What is that?"
        "The boys. I hope they will not be falling in love with Gwendolen."
        "Don't presuppose anything of the kind, my dear, and there will be no
        danger. Rex will never be at home for long together, and Warham is going
        to India. It is the wiser plan to take it for granted that cousins will
        not fall in love. If you begin with precautions, the affair will come in
        spite of them. One must not undertake to act for Providence in these
        matters, which can no more be held under the hand than a brood of
        chickens. The boys will have nothing, and Gwendolen will have nothing.
        They can't marry. At the worst there would only be a little crying, and
        you can't save boys and girls from that."
        Mrs. Gascoigne's mind was satisfied: if anything did happen, there was the
        comfort of feeling that her husband would know what was to be done, and
        would have the energy to do it.

         
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          CHAPTER IV.
           
              "_Gorgibus._-- * * * Je te dis que le mariage est une chose sainte
              et sacrée: et que c'est faire en honnêtes gens, que de débuter par là.
              "_Madelon._--Mon Dieu! que si tout le monde vous ressemblait, un
              roman serait bientôt fini! La belle chose que ce serait, si d'abord
              Cyrus épousait Mandane, et qu'Aronce de plain-pied fût marié à Clélie!
              * * * Laissez-nous faire à loisir le tissu de notre roman, et n'en
              pressez pas tant la conclusion."
                                         MOLIÈRE. _Les Précieuses Ridicules._

          It would be a little hard to blame the rector of Pennicote that in the
          course of looking at things from every point of view, he looked at
          Gwendolen as a girl likely to make a brilliant marriage. Why should he be
          expected to differ from his contemporaries in this matter, and wish his
          niece a worse end of her charming maidenhood than they would approve as
          the best possible? It is rather to be set down to his credit that his
          feelings on the subject were entirely good-natured. And in considering the
          relation of means to ends, it would have been mere folly to have been
          guided by the exceptional and idyllic--to have recommended that Gwendolen
          should wear a gown as shabby as Griselda's in order that a marquis might
          fall in love with her, or to have insisted that since a fair maiden was to
          be sought, she should keep herself out of the way. Mr. Gascoigne's
          calculations were of the kind called rational, and he did not even think
          of getting a too frisky horse in order that Gwendolen might be threatened
          with an accident and be rescued by a man of property. He wished his niece
          well, and he meant her to be seen to advantage in the best society of the
          neighborhood.
          Her uncle's intention fell in perfectly with Gwendolen's own wishes. But
          let no one suppose that she also contemplated a brilliant marriage as the
          direct end of her witching the world with her grace on horseback, or with
          any other accomplishment. That she was to be married some time or other
          she would have felt obliged to admit; and that her marriage would not be
          of a middling kind, such as most girls were contented with, she felt
          quietly, unargumentatively sure. But her thoughts never dwelt on marriage
          as the fulfillment of her ambition; the dramas in which she imagined
          herself a heroine were not wrought up to that close. To be very much sued
          or hopelessly sighed for as a bride was indeed an indispensable and
          agreeable guarantee of womanly power; but to become a wife and wear all
          the domestic fetters of that condition, was on the whole a vexatious
          necessity. Her observation of matrimony had inclined her to think it
          rather a dreary state in which a woman could not do what she liked, had
          more children than were desirable, was consequently dull, and became
          irrevocably immersed in humdrum. Of course marriage was social promotion;
          she could not look forward to a single life; but promotions have sometimes
          to be taken with bitter herbs--a peerage will not quite do instead of
          leadership to the man who meant to lead; and this delicate-limbed sylph of
          twenty meant to lead. For such passions dwell in feminine breasts also. In
          Gwendolen's, however, they dwelt among strictly feminine furniture, and
          had no disturbing reference to the advancement of learning or the balance
          of the constitution; her knowledge being such as with no sort of standing-
          room or length of lever could have been expected to move the world. She
          meant to do what was pleasant to herself in a striking manner; or rather,
          whatever she could do so as to strike others with admiration and get in
          that reflected way a more ardent sense of living, seemed pleasant to her
          fancy.
          "Gwendolen will not rest without having the world at her feet," said Miss
          Merry, the meek governess: hyperbolical words which have long come to
          carry the most moderate meanings; for who has not heard of private persons
          having the world at their feet in the shape of some half-dozen items of
          flattering regard generally known in a genteel suburb? And words could
          hardly be too wide or vague to indicate the prospect that made a hazy
          largeness about poor Gwendolen on the heights of her young self-
          exultation. Other people allowed themselves to be made slaves of, and to
          have their lives blown hither and thither like empty ships in which no
          will was present. It was not to be so with her; she would no longer be
          sacrificed to creatures worth less than herself, but would make the very
          best of the chances that life offered her, and conquer circumstances by
          her exceptional cleverness. Certainly, to be settled at Offendene, with
          the notice of Lady Brackenshaw, the archery club, and invitations to dine
          with the Arrowpoints, as the highest lights in her scenery, was not a
          position that seemed to offer remarkable chances; but Gwendolen's
          confidence lay chiefly in herself. She felt well equipped for the mastery
          of life. With regard to much in her lot hitherto, she held herself rather
          hardly dealt with, but as to her "education," she would have admitted that
          it had left her under no disadvantages. In the school-room her quick mind
          had taken readily that strong starch of unexplained rules and disconnected
          facts which saves ignorance from any painful sense of limpness; and what
          remained of all things knowable, she was conscious of being sufficiently
          acquainted with through novels, plays and poems. About her French and
          music, the two justifying accomplishments of a young lady, she felt no
          ground for uneasiness; and when to all these qualifications, negative and
          positive, we add the spontaneous sense of capability some happy persons
          are born with, so that any subject they turn their attention to impresses
          them with their own power of forming a correct judgment on it, who can
          wonder if Gwendolen felt ready to manage her own destiny?
          There were many subjects in the world--perhaps the majority--in which she
          felt no interest, because they were stupid; for subjects are apt to appear
          stupid to the young as light seems dull to the old; but she would not have
          felt at all helpless in relation to them if they had turned up in
          conversation. It must be remembered that no one had disputed her power or
          her general superiority. As on the arrival at Offendene, so always, the
          first thought of those about her had been, what will Gwendolen think?--if
          the footman trod heavily in creaking boots, or if the laundress's work was
          unsatisfactory, the maid said, "This will never do for Miss Harleth"; if
          the wood smoked in the bedroom fireplace, Mrs. Davilow, whose own weak
          eyes suffered much from this inconvenience, spoke apologetically of it to
          Gwendolen. If, when they were under the stress of traveling, she did not
          appear at the breakfast table till every one else had finished, the only
          question was, how Gwendolen's coffee and toast should still be of the
          hottest and crispest; and when she appeared with her freshly-brushed
          light-brown hair streaming backward and awaiting her mamma's hand to coil
          it up, her large brown eyes glancing bright as a wave-washed onyx from
          under their long lashes, it was always she herself who had to be tolerant
          --to beg that Alice who sat waiting on her would not stick up her
          shoulders in that frightful manner, and that Isabel, instead of pushing up
          to her and asking questions, would go away to Miss Merry.
          Always she was the princess in exile, who in time of famine was to have
          her breakfast-roll made of the finest-bolted flour from the seven thin
          ears of wheat, and in a general decampment was to have her silver fork
          kept out of the baggage. How was this to be accounted for? The answer may
          seem to lie quite on the surface:--in her beauty, a certain unusualness
          about her, a decision of will which made itself felt in her graceful
          movements and clear unhesitating tones, so that if she came into the room
          on a rainy day when everybody else was flaccid and the use of things in
          general was not apparent to them, there seemed to be a sudden, sufficient
          reason for keeping up the forms of life; and even the waiters at hotels
          showed the more alacrity in doing away with crumbs and creases and dregs
          with struggling flies in them. This potent charm, added to the fact that
          she was the eldest daughter, toward whom her mamma had always been in an
          apologetic state of mind for the evils brought on her by a step-father,
          may seem so full a reason for Gwendolen's domestic empire, that to look
          for any other would be to ask the reason of daylight when the sun is
          shining. But beware of arriving at conclusions without comparison. I
          remember having seen the same assiduous, apologetic attention awarded to
          persons who were not at all beautiful or unusual, whose firmness showed
          itself in no very graceful or euphonious way, and who were not eldest
          daughters with a tender, timid mother, compunctious at having subjected
          them to inconveniences. Some of them were a very common sort of men. And
          the only point of resemblance among them all was a strong determination to
          have what was pleasant, with a total fearlessness in making themselves
          disagreeable or dangerous when they did not get it. Who is so much cajoled
          and served with trembling by the weak females of a household as the
          unscrupulous male--capable, if he has not free way at home, of going and
          doing worse elsewhere? Hence I am forced to doubt whether even without her
          potent charm and peculiar filial position Gwendolen might not still have
          played the queen in exile, if only she had kept her inborn energy of
          egoistic desire, and her power of inspiring fear as to what she might say
          or do. However, she had the charm, and those who feared her were also fond
          of her; the fear and the fondness being perhaps both heightened by what
          may be called the iridescence of her character--the play of various, nay,
          contrary tendencies. For Macbeth's rhetoric about the impossibility of
          being many opposite things in the same moment, referred to the clumsy
          necessities of action and not to the subtler possibilities of feeling. We
          cannot speak a loyal word and be meanly silent; we cannot kill and not
          kill in the same moment; but a moment is wide enough for the loyal and
          mean desire, for the outlash of a murderous thought and the sharp backward
          stroke of repentance.
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